Question by Why Me: I need help fighting an opiate addiction?
I am a 38 year old man that has ( had ) everything going for him. My whole life I totaly ignored and stayed away from everyone that did any kind of drugs no matter what they where. Over the last 2 years I started using pain meds for back pain then it became an addiction. I currently have taken 160mg of oxycodone 4 to 5 times a day. I will take anything I can get my hands on to stop the pain. Yes I started it for back pain then the high, Now 2 years later I want off !!! Because 1 – I am loosing everything, 2 – I am spending over a $ 100.00 a day like nothing “Street Value”. And the first thing on my mind is, do I have enough and i will only concentrate on getting it before anything else. Food, Etc..I have reduced my dose to about 90 mg 3 times a day. I take it so I dont have withdraws. I try to stop but it hurts so bad, I cant sleep, eat, think, walk, I have restless legs and arms. I am a total jerk to everyone, I dont want to do anything without it. I WANT TO STOP !!!! I went to the emergancy room and they did all the tests blood work etc.. After all said and done they tell me I cant go back there again and make me sign a paper stating so. They also said I need to go to west care,????? I have heard some pritty bad storys about west care. That they dont give you anything and your in a room so you can quit cold turky. I cant stop cold turkey. The emergancy room said because of my high doses I take and how often I could have a heart attack and or die if I try to quit cold turkey. I dont know what to do, I have tried several doctors and they keep telling me the samething. To Stop !!!! If they only new. I heard suboxon is great and Methadone, I also was told that, As ridiculous as this may sound, To do “SPEED” that it will take all the pain and side affects away. I am so serious about quitting but like i said the withdraws and pain are very, very, very BAD!!!! I used to bad mouth drug heads and I am now paying the price. P.S>. Please dont reply to this post if you dont know what you are talking about and / or never experianced what I am talking about because anyone that has, understands what I am saying, so please keep… Continue reading →