Borderline symptoms, or not? Just need advice, please =/?
Question by marinecadet: Borderline symptoms, or not? Just need advice, please =/?
I’m diagnosed with bipolar disorder, ocd, some ptsd symptoms, but I’ve been starting to identify with some borderline symptoms. My emotions are extremely varied hour to hour and my mood changes very quickly depending on the environment (ex. bad test grade, friend ignoring me, someone random person is rude to me). I think this is why mood stabilizers weren’t therapeutic for me. Because even when I was on them, Some thing would happen and I’d fall into a really deep depression almost instantly.
I don’t have many manic episodes, but I get severely depressed a lot. I have episodes of depersonalization, and sometimes I have trouble looking in the mirror, because it feels uncomfortable, almost confusing to see myself. I don’t have a stable image of myself in my head. (one day I’m pretty, the next i’m ugly, skinny, fat, stupid, intelligent etc.)
I am extremely dependent and need someone’s reassurance, or compliments. or else I get depressed. I can’t really make decisions for myself.
My personal relationships are a mess and I tend to make things really complicated and dramatic, to mimic the way I feel. For example my boyfriend, sometimes I never want to see him again, and HATE him, other times I really want to say I love him- but i never say it. I don’t even say “I love you” to my parents or sister.
I remember when I was younger, I felt betrayed by alot of people and never talked to them again, although I can’t say what they did to deserve that. I basically isolated myself and blamed my loneliness on others. To this day, I can’t get close to many people, because I’m afraid I’ll get hurt. This has caused many problems in my intimate relationships.
I’ve had trouble with substance abuse, shoplifting, self control in general. I’ve been kinda hopeless and lonely here at university, I keep creating this plan B in my head, that If I have to drop out, I’m goin to join the military. For example, if ANYthing goes wrong, relationships, school, I immediately start thinking about this plan B.
I’ve also been told I’m emotionally immature, I can’t identify what I’m feeling, and therefore it’s really hard for me to deal with it since I don’t even know what emotion I’m experiencing.
Also, My first cousin was diagnosed with BPD.
Q: for those of you who have been exposed to BPD, what should I do to lessen these symptoms? I’m really struggling to stay on top of my game these days.
Best answer:
Answer by Brii
sounds a lot like BPD…try doing DBT, it was developed for treatment of BPD
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