What is recovery like?

Question by manuel d: What is recovery like?
I am an alcoholic and a drug addict.
I will change November 8, 2009.
I am a good person, but I have allowed my substance abuse to blur lines of Honesty, Trustworthiness, Honor, Self, Family, Thrift, and God.
I will change November 8, 2009
These blurred lines have allowed me to temporarily justify selfish decisions, each one eventually illuminated by my moral compass, each one manifesting into regret, the sum of which is presently unbearable.
I will change November 8, 2009
I live in two realities, the First being a host for the Second. Within the Second I act without regard to consequence, all consequence postponed for reckoning upon reentering the First, while drawing Happiness from the First at will. Continuously making decisions without regard to consequence, within the Second, has made existing within the First seemingly hopeless. In the First, I find Happiness only upon the transition to the Second. Presently in the Second, the damage inflicted upon the First, has left nothing to draw from.
I will change November 8, 2009
I will not use excuses concerning inequality or fairness to justify my inability to succeed.
I will change November 8, 2009

I will change November 8, 2009
The alternative does not exist.

Best answer:

Answer by jfrei6982
thank you,
i pray for your return to reality #1 for good and the true joy you can find sober.
i would like to wish you all the luck in the world and remember how hard this is so you never go back

BEST OF LUCK!

(did you ever think of writing as a job i think this Q is the most well written Q i ever read)

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