What are the chance of me “diagnosing” or “realizing” that I suffer from schizophrenia?

Question by Tyler: What are the chance of me “diagnosing” or “realizing” that I suffer from schizophrenia?
Ok, a little bit about my medical history:
-I’m soon to be 18 years old on the 21st of this month.
-I started smoking pot winter of 2007
-I also heavily used “triple c’s” (dextromethorphan)
-I also quite heavily used “duster” (computer key-board cleaner)
-I also heavily drank much alcohol.
all of my drug use began winter of 2007 and carried through heavily until late summer of 2008.
-At that time I spent about 2 weeks in a mental health facility after being caught with pot by my mother.
-I was medically labeled while in this institute as “catatonic”
-also depressed.
-later visits with therapists/etc…I was diagnosed with “disthymia”
-October of 2008 I attempted suicide.
-Spent about a week in another mental health facility.
And now, after staying pretty clean since October, here I am at my third attempt at college.
-I’m feeling “better” and not as “depressed”
But from my reading of my psychology book…I so strongly believe I’m schizophrenic….maybe.

I see coincidences in my life that scare me!
I’ll be talking to someone and the radio or the television will finish my sentence! or I’ll being thinking of something and then it’s enacted infront of me by my perception of this world (my friends, family, strangers, etc…)
It’s not that it’s too inflicting that I cant cope…but I sometimes wonder if I succedded in comitting suicide…or if I’m still in a mental hospital somewhere….
I feel as though my best friend talks to me in my mind…as though it’s telepethy or something….but my best friend won’t see me anymore after I admitted to him that I was gay!!!!!

I seriously do not intend to jeopordize anything that’s happening in this world….but I feel as though I’m literally condemned to some kind of hell.
(Something that truly enrages me is when people clear their throats…)
and I try so hard to overlook this….but it seem as though I even hear the clearing of throats in my mind as I’m typing….

And it scares me….because when my mind directs me (via this “voice”) to be observant of detail….I notice very important things..

driving one night from a friend’s house…this “voice” told me to drastically slow down…and since there wasn’t anything coming either way….I went along with it….when I slowed my truck from 45mph to about 15; I saw a small field mouse cross the road….

It’s items such as these that make me uestion what is going on with me….with the world….with my mind….who, where, when, what, why….all these details about me…..

And then, I wonder, well, does everyone experience life this way??
Is this just a matter of growing up? Phases and stages I go through??
My mind/this world…it’s difficult to draw the line and know the differnce any more….and it truly scares me sometimes….but then again….I can gaze in awe at what I see and hear before me…

Is there any scientific defining of what this is I’m experiencing?

I believe I’m ADHD, with a litttle OCD, and just a pinch of disthymia/depression topped off with schizophrenia….
any thoughts to comfer me?

And as far therapy, talking, etc….that’s mostly what makes me uncomfortable, so can’t really go for it. I was hoping for maybe some kind of brain scan, fMRI, blood work to test the levels of nerotransmitters, etc….

UGH!!!!! what is wrong with me??

Best answer:

Answer by dena
wow, this is serious. i think you need to pray and find a good church to pray for you. i’m not joking here

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