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Wow this was my first Short Film Blog and looking at it sort of makes me laugh because of the imperfections in it but these Short Films are not about the Directing. The Blog is about the message I wanted to show the world and to remind myself of my story of the unfortunate addiction I have to Crystal Meth and where it took me. You hear a voice in the beginning, that is my ex boyfriend. His name is JM I had a chance at having a great relationship with someone who really cares about me but chose another path. You can hear in his voice how much he really cared, giving that he didn’t even know he was being recorded (Sorry JM) Fast forward just a tad and you will see the double me in a hat looking down. This scene simply represents SHAME. I collected many varieties of shame over the years, one being my lying to JM during our relationship about my using and my addiction. Unfortunately my only solution was to do MORE. Now next scene i look at myself and then jumps to a funny looking shadow outlining my head kinda spinning. This is basically me telling myself “Ok here we go!!!” then my head fills with the chaos and insanity that Crystal has brought into my life and that is when I spin. Jump to Lady Gaga singing “I want your ugly I want your disease”. Well, she said it for me. It made me UGLY and the ADDICTION is a DISEASE. No, not herpes or syphilis. Call it what you will, but my term is Alcoholism. I replace Alcohol with Meth and the reason I choose Alcoholism is because …
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