my mom thinks i’m addicted to drugs/i’m a drug addict. (question at very bottom of paragraph)?

Question by Ally K: my mom thinks i’m addicted to drugs/i’m a drug addict. (question at very bottom of paragraph)?
I KNOW THIS IS LONG BUT I’M IN DEEP NEED OF ADVICE AND CLEAR THOUGHTS. PLEASE READ AND RESPOND. I am a 17 yr old female with more life experience than most. I believe I was an addict. I would do drugs (alcohol, weed, ecstacy, pharmasuticals). I would not stop because I liked having fun and I can openly admit that I had a problem. I would smoke 9 times a day, spent countless amounts of money on bongs and pipes and weed. I was sent away for 8 months to an all girls program in montana to “fix” me. I came back and was clean for over a year, then I decided to smoke weed again. I had been deprived and I really wanted to get high. So for the next 6 months I was smoking TONS of weed and doing pills. i even did acid once. then i stopped and got clean ON MY OWN. I was clean two weeks before I was put in outpatient rehab. I was clean 60 days before I took some ambien for my birthday in august. clean again 30 more days to spice. and then i got kicked out of rehab for failing my drug test (ironic to get kicked out of rehab for doing drugs). Now I sometimes smoke weed. i haven’t touched pills since. I dont even drink. So sometimes i choose to smoke weed. on a weekend when no one is home maybe i’ll go sit in the hottub and smoke a bowl. or late at night when i cant sleep i’ll smoke a bowl and watch a movie till i fall asleep. when i’m with my friends, if we have nothing to do, we’ll smoke a bowl and go walk though some woods and explore nature. go on adventures. yes i will admit that sometimes i choose to smoke weed over doing my homework but its the same thing as choosing video games over homework. i’ll be 18 in a few months but i dont want my relationship with my mom to be completely destroyed so i’ll quit for now until things simmer down. I believe i had an addiction problem, i was an excited 14 year old that wanted to be cool with her friends and just simply liked weed, i didnt know how to control myself and overdid everything. after 3 years of treatment programs, countless hours spent in therapy (i’ve been going to therapy since i was 4) i’ve learned to control myself and how i conduct myself in society. if i wanna smoke weed, i will, if i dont, i wont. i dont see what the problem is for wanting to smoke weed freely after 3 years, or wanting to smoke weed before a movie or before i eat some food or have a good time with my friends. my mom is crazy but everyone thinks their mom is crazy, my older brother smoked weed way more than i did in highschool and after high school but she still supported him and she knew. but if i do it the whole world is over. if i go a year without smoking, the ONE time i do, i’m a drug addict and i’ll never quit even though i was just clean for a year. so my questions are:
1. your reasons for why and why not to smoke weed
2. alcohol vs weed
3. do you really think i’m an addict?
4. do you really think someone is an addict because they smoke weed at midnight while watching a movie in bed trying to fall asleep?
5. is my mom right?
6. is it such a big deal that i smoke a little weed? is it such a big deal that after 3 hellacious, mentally destroying, LONG years that i smoke a bowl sometimes? i think i’ve earned it.
i’m a little confused too as to why my mom says its okay to drink and doesnt get that mad if i drink or come home drunk, but FLIPS out if i smoke or come home high. please explain to me what is so wrong in this scenario.

Best answer:

Answer by ♥Dayana♥
just quit and go tsomewhere/

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