My depression is coming back? :(?

Question by Barbie_hates_pinkx: My depression is coming back? :(?
Okay so im 18 and when I started to develop depression when I was 15. I have attempted to kill myself many times, I thought about suicide so much that any little bad thing that happend to me it was like a light switch went off in my head, I would come up with a plan on how to end my life. well my sophmore year I started using drugs, and last march I started using meth. I got addicted to it. So theres two major problems.

This past june I got sent to rehab so depression and the use of drugs I was in there till october. When I got out I was back to normal, happy & sober. But for the past two weeks y urges to cut and thoughts to kill myself are coming back and my cravings for drugs are coming back also, just the other day a picture of cocaine popped up in my head and my mouth started to water.

I mean im getting depressed all over again. I dont want to fall apart again this time. I came out of that rehab place making damn sure I live my life right this time.

what do I do?
Also I tried looking for NA meetings but there is none in or near my area
on another note, I have seen 3 different psychiatrist not including the ones in rehab. and I have been to 2 other facilitys for depression. I just dont want to put my family back through all that again.

I feel like a nousince.

Best answer:

Answer by Michael Jackson
you’ll get through it dont worry ppl say if u are depressed u gain weakness, thts a lie when u are depressed, you are tired of being strong.

Answer by ChiMom
Okay, once leaving rehab you need a strong aftercare plan–you need to be going to meetings for support, as well as a payschaitrist for depression and anxiety–especially someone who specializes in recovery.
Many people with depression are also prone to addiction. Going to rehab is wonderful, but it doesn’t carry you through life. You need constant recovery–daily/weekly 12 step programs is the best way to stay clean and sober.
having the support is essential.
otherwise you are, what is termed, a
‘dry drunk’.
You are not using–but are not doing anything to keep the cravings, etc at bay.
You may need an antidepressant if you have a chemical imbalance causing the depression.
best wishes to you

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