Moving from bi-polar to schizophrenia?
Question by Solicity: Moving from bi-polar to schizophrenia?
I have been diagnosed as a bi-polar for 18 years. I’m am fully aware that there are stages of bi-polar and with age it becomes tougher to treat and shows more active signs and symptoms..
I was prepared for that. Over the years, different doctors have suggested different things, one of them being that left Untreated Bi-polar can become worsened and lead to schizophrenia…I am not technically untreated, I have been on supplements of St.Johns Wart and Saffron which has done wonders in leveling my mood swings and allowing me to live a progressive life as an artist, a mother and a volunteer teacher. I have been involved with my community and even volunteered with national agencies to do grant writing.
The last two months or so I have been realizing though, that I have been hearing things…Not just recently but for some time now. They are not personalities or anything like that, They remind me of being in a restaurant and the people at the next table are having a muted conversation..Like that but There is no next table and the voices are clearer.. Sometimes I think…did I just hear that or did I imagine it? I’m constantly asking if my family members hear, things too. they usually don’t.
There have been other things, I have been withdrawing a lot lately, I recently quit volunteering at the school, my husband has continued on for me, but I can’t bring myself to do it. I feel like I am not good enough to teach those kids, but I simply cannot get out of bed either..
There is a spot on the wall, a flaw in the paint..it’s small but I will lay on my bed for hours deciphering it’s need to be there. I have become more obsessive about my families hygiene…yet I only leave my pajamas to shower.. I stopped going to the gym..I feel like I simply cannot go out..I am paranoid what if I get in an accident or worse?
I used to have faith in ppl now, I believe that people are liars and wretches and are mean and spiteful…
Mostly I am scared, because what if that doctor was right? There were so many drugs they gave me, some made me seize, others gave me an addiction. I have been drug free for 10 years, Smoke free for 1 and Alcohol free for 3. I don’t want to feel like this anymore….But I don’t have the privilege of insurance and There is no one to help with counseling for under or uninsured in my community.
Does this sound like schizophrenia to anyone? I know that you are not medical doctors, but some validation from anyone, would make me feel better and perhaps I could find a path to go down if I knew it wasn’t just me being paranoid.
ok…maybe I should clear that…Not an ex Meth tweaker..though I did some when I was a kid (like 15) I mean Pharmaceutical drugs…no anti’s, no asprin, nothing…
When I said withdrawing..I meant, I’m no longer social…I’ve been extremely depressed in the past..I’ve had 18 years of dealing with EXTREME depression..this is different. I’m dizzy, fuzzy thinking, confused alot, I’m screwed in social settings..tend to stutter or screw up sentences.When talking.
Keep god out of my answer threads plz. If I could control the voices, then obviously I wouldn’t be here…and By gosh I may very well NOT be schizophrenic..but to you who quoted the bible in my thread…You are what they call a fanatic..take your godliness to church and outta my thread!
Best answer:
Answer by Zachary A
Sounds more like depression, to me. Paranoid Schizophrenia is characterized by hearing voices, and actually ACTING upon them. Long-term meth addiction sometimes leaves people with delusional thinking long after they have abstained from the drug. Former tweakers need to get any kind of free help ASAP. Continue to attend AA/NA meetings and openly talk about these voices, and compulsive behavior. Help is always within those rooms.
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