morbid social anxiety – i have no life?

Question by avtar: morbid social anxiety – i have no life?
the more stable the situation, small gatherings, people i know well, the better off i am, but still strained – before, I drank large amounts of alcohol to cope but now I’m sober – little did I know sober would also seemingly include the following dictionary definitions: devoid of frivolity, excess, exaggeration; marked by seriousness, gravity, or solemnity of conduct or character.
Marked by circumspection and self-restraint…

and i’m basically sick of it, i have very low self-esteem and no prospects, nothing that could be construed as a validating life

“go get help!” yay right, tried that – talking to a total stranger about the most personal aspects of my life – ya sounds really pleasurable and assuring given my problem

I try to meet girls, but I can’t even make new friends – I get freaked out even trying to make 5 seconds of small talk to order at Starbucks and have to plan out what I’m going to say, and plan for another 100 possible contingency scenarios
let me add that it is easier on here to ask because of the anonymity
the side effects of paxil and zoloft are not confidence instilling at all – especially considering some existing suicidal ideation already – and I know that’s not good

Best answer:

Answer by Mel
You have a social problem and alcohol will only make it worse because the only people that want to hang around with drunks are other drunks hoping someone will buy a round.

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