is there Anyone out there that feels my pain or understands my struggle.?
Question by James A: is there Anyone out there that feels my pain or understands my struggle.?
Well to start, I am a 20 year old male. I am trying to push on through what little I have left of life. By that I mean, I am scared for my physical health. I used to be obese. Literally when I was 17 I weighed 314 pounds. Eventually from seeing everyone in my immediate family smoke, I started. After a while I started to lose my BIG appetite. I also started skateboarding. Now I am 20 years old and I have lost over !00 pounds and I weigh like 175. But Obviously thats’ not the Problem. When I was 17 I also had a really bad drug habit. I got hooked on Cocaine. when I got a Check from the Government, that’s where most of it went. I was still really obese so It’s not like any Girls wanted me. They would look at me as if I was about as good as the Gum stuck to the bottom of their shoe. That made me really depressed, Hence the Cocaine Addiction. I got so caught up in my own world that I Neglected my body hygiene. I believed that I was going to be this Huge Monster my whole life and No one would ever want to be with a Pig. So after like a Month I went just about broke, and I stopped Cocaine. My mom Ended up doing coc. I can’t tell you the feeling of Sad and remorse I feel from the Memory of Smoking Crack with my mom. Or Doing coke with her. Anyways, She lef me. My older brothers were doing good. But no one wanted to help me. So I became homeless for a Short time. Now a couple years later, I started seeing acne like lumps on my upper back. Some had puss most didn’t. Their more like cysts. Now I can’t afford to go to a doctor because of No Insurance and I have these hard bumps all over my body. Thankfully not on my face or anywhere else ppl can see. But I half to wear 2 shirts at all times because they are obvious to see with 1 shirt on. Also I have 4 rotten teeth in the front top row, from the cocaine and Neglect of brushing. So here I am just a 20 year old. 4 rotten teeth. Lumps all over my body, and a 5 year smoking habit and No insurance. The worst part of all of this is 1 I have 2 older brothers that both have kids. and are good looking, good off in life right now but can’t afford to help. And 2 I lost almost all of the weight I Had from being fat. So now I’m getting attention from Females. And I cant do ANYTHING about it because of my rotten Teeth and the GOD Damn Lumps. I’m so lonely. I’ve been alone So Long most ppl and even 1 of my brothers think I’m Gay and need Mental help. I can’t Remember the Last time I heard I Love you from Anyone. I feel like a Cold-Helpless Soul. So here I am spilling my guts to anyone who cares. Can I get help with Medical/ Dental bills and Insurance. I want to quit smoking and am willing to go on a t.v. show and Strip naked with a Wide Smile if someone will fix me.
Best answer:
Answer by Beebs
you may want to try finding a job if you have one, I can’t help you with bills, and if you have any friends, ask them, any family, ask them for help too, but if you have no money, how are you on the computer/internet?
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