Is it normal to feel this way after the love of my life broke my heart?

Published May 22, 2010

When will I stop dwelling on every hour about “why’ he dumped me just 10 days after getting back together with me… so he could “move in” (bang) his “ex?”

Obviously he doesnt love or care about me.

We dated on-and-off for a full year. He gave me the silent treatment breakup in august, so he could date a crystal meth stripper. That lasted one month and was a disaster.

I was his back-up boyfriend so he came running back to me 6 weeks later.

Then in January he gives me the silent treatment breakup again for 6 weeks, and starts dating his ex whom he calls his “first love”, his true love, and the one he always compares to me.

6 weeks later he calls me to get back together ( i had no clue he had gotten back with his ex)

so i take him back a 2nd time…then just10 days later he dumps me again for the 3rd time to “move in” with his ex.

He says im “selfish, abandoning him, and need to grow up”, and it was my fault for not accepting to be “just freinds”

Anyways, i wrote him about 5 emails telling him not t ocall me anymore because im moving on….but he still calls me!

when will i stop feeling all this anger, RAGE, betrayal, HURT, sadness from the person i thought would be the last to ever cause such emotioinal pain to my life.

When will I stop “secretly” wanting him back in my life the way it use to be at the beginning where he was a gentleman?

Will the pain and hurt ever stop?

Are my feelings normal?
Like right now I’m obsessing about wheter or not they’re having sex right this instant , and it’s driving me insane because theres nothing ican do about it. i dont want him back after hes been “dirtied” if you know what i mean.

Is it normal to feel this way after the love of my life broke my heart?

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