I need support, please. im 15 and my life has already gone beyond any point of help?!?
Question by Ariah: I need support, please. im 15 and my life has already gone beyond any point of help?!?
im 15 years old. i will be 16 in less than a month.
ive been in the court system since i was 14.
i was locked up for 8 months in juvenile detention and 2 programs.
ive been to detention a lot, i have lots of charges.
im facing my second felony in court on march 18th.
im fat and ugly… my family cant affod counceling or medication for depression and A.D.D.
I was kicked out of my high school and its the only high school within 60 miles of where i live.
i started doing drugs at 13 and have tried just about anything, i will do anything i can get, my current addiction is cough medicine, pain pills, sex, meth, weed, and cigarettes. the only love i ever had cheated on me and played mind games and abused me. my dad is abusiive and addicted to meth, verbally and so is my mom. the only person i could trust is addicted to pain pills BAD and she is slowly dying. i have a brother with aids and addicted to heroin. i have had sex with 4-5 guys with no relationships trying to get pregnant, no protection. at least 10 guys more than 10 times each I cut myself, and you can say its for attention all you want, but i will only do it when i get yelled at, it calms me down, and punching walls… i have always had trouble making friends, partly because i cant control my actions or what comes out of my mouth. i’m a compulsive liar to my parents.. they offen tell me what a waste of a person i am, how i eat too much, how i wont ever get anywhere… i grew up in a home where my dad was never home and i never heard “i love you” (im in tears just from typing that) i drink whenever i can and i always end up drinking too much, that i pass out of have sex with someone and not remember it. i’m a theif. i steal money from anyone. i steal cough medicine from the stores. ive overdosed a lot on it. i have a very ugly face and everything about me is pretty much unloveable. the only people that hang out with me are people who do bad things “sometimes” and im the kind of person that is always doing bad things. lots of people in this small town hate me, and ever since i was in kindergarten some kids my age were told to stay away from me… i will do anything for exceptance and im addicted to the feeling of being able to say “ive done that before” idk what to do and your probably not going to answer this now because i sound like a horrible person.. oh well go ahead tell me how im wasting this world’s oxygen.
or you can give me some support or advice?
this upcoming court date is one that going to probably put me in community placement, away from my home, for long term… i have no idea what to do………….. i feel like dying.
the last grade i ACTUALLY PASSED was 6th grade.
oh i forgot to add that when i was 14, right before i got locked up i was raped and while i was locked up i got a call and they told me “the guy that raped me left town and possibly went back to mexico” he was a mexican….. it was eating me alive while i was locked up and its getting worse over time. sometimes i cant sleep, i have dreams, and i cry whenever i think about it…
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