I know I already asked this………?

Question by Alex: I know I already asked this………?
I already asked this earlier, but I literally only got 2 answers and I need more help than that.

A while back, I had a bad addiction to heroine and cocaine. My friends and family sent me off to drug rehab a while ago and I’ve been clean until now. Lately, I’ve been extremely upset and have been using heroine and cocaine again for the past week and a half. I know you’re not supposed to use illegal drugs to fight depression, but it feels so right. I’ve been avoiding my friends for about two weeks now. The only reason why I feel bad about going back to drugs is because when my friend found out, she was extremely disappointed. The only thing that matters to me is her happiness. The reason for my depression is that I can’t have her. A part of me refuses to grasp that fact.

Do you have any suggestions as to how I can turn my life around? I hate myself so much right now.
She’s marrying one of our other friends this month. I really have wanted to tell her how I feel for the past 8 years, but I’ve been too scared. I think I’m going to tell her soon.
I love the girl. She’s been able to brighten up every day that I see her just by talking to me.

I’ve been trying to stop, but there’s a voice in the back of my head telling me to destroy my life because I have no reason to live.

Best answer:

Answer by kellie r
try going back to treatment and remember the reasons you quit in the first place. dont hate yourself do something to change it…its the habit that is bad not you

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