I am in love with my brother (Read before you judge)?

Question by Alesha: I am in love with my brother (Read before you judge)?
I have one older brother, three years older than me,we have different fathers but the same mother.

When i was seven and he was 10, we were taken into care because our mother took crack cocaine and would just leave us in the house alone. My brother took care of me, made me breakfast, took me to school and when i was 8 i was diagnosed with epilepsy and he would be the only one who could calm me down and make me feel better. We shared a room in the home and slept in the same bed (and i mean literally slept) untill he was 13 and we said we were going to always stay together until the people at the home made him stay in his own room but we would still find ways to stay together at nights. We lived in the home until he was 17 and we both moved into a flat. He left school and got a job and i kept going to school, we started sleeping in the same bed together again until he told me it needed to stop. He’s now 20 and im 17 and i hate sleeping without him, i know its wrong but i sleep better when he’s with me. Anyway about 3 months ago he got a new girlfriend and since then i have been going insane with jealousy, i will lie awake at night hearing them together and it makes me physically sick, my mind is telling me ‘He should be with you and no one else’ He’s talking about moving in with her and i couldnt bear losing him, it would kill me. It took me a while to figure it out but i am in love with my brother. I know its sick and wrong but everytime i look at him all i want to do is kiss him. So anyway i ended up telling him how i felt one night last week, t first he said ‘this is wrong’ but then he admitted he felt the same way and we kissed and went to bed together (we did not have sex) he told me he loves me but we cant be together and that he needs to move out. I know its for the best but its just really hard to come to terms with and im really depressed – how do i move on, he was the only family i had and now he’s left.

Best answer:

Answer by disneygirl1211
We can’t help you that much. I’d go see a psychologist they can really help.

I’m not saying this to be mean and I don’t think you are crazy. Most likely you are looking for a boyfriend and there is your brother, the perfect person you spent your whole life with. Maybe you really do love him or maybe your jealous because he can’t spend time with you.

Whatever case, your not the first to go through this. there are people who can help and support you. talking to them could be for the best.

Know better? Leave your own answer in the comments!