i am bipolar and i wanted to know?

Question by o.0: i am bipolar and i wanted to know?
basically how bad i have it or whatever, i was diagnosed at a way young age like in 4th grade, so my shrink says i have it was ridiculously bad, but half of my treatment with her i was using heavy drugs, so i was all over the place and it was impossible to maintain it., regardless i been done with that for awhile now, i went from seroquel 600 mg (ALOT?!) down to taking lamictil 300mg daily, to me it seems that whenever i have “a bad day’ or whatever she like doubles me mg. its BOGUS!! least to say i havent been taking my lamictil for a few weeks now and honestly i feel pretty good, ive had a few manic highs ( guess its been scince about february scince i was taking regularly) and only a few lows. striaght up though i feel like a nromal person having normal moods, like i can get down or whatever but its never like months or whatever, and when i get mad at myself or ppl i stay mad for a bit then get over it and try and fix it. honestly i dont even know if i do have it( though with creativity and my..craziness..) i probably do lol. but yeah only she knows best basically but i wanted to know what ppl out there thought of all of this, ALSO. im making on helluva recovery from drug abuse. 1 year clean, and from how it messed with my head i dont really ever weanna go back, not even drink, me and subvs dont mix well, . buut yup, i just wanna manage it and not full on debilitate me to the world, which is what shes doin kinda. dealin with it aint that bad. thank yous ..p.s. any reccomendations?

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Answer by Sophie
Go back on your meds, This happens you feel like your better and trust me it gets bad. You can ruin you life within a few hours when you really manic so dont! talk to your doctor and keep going to therapy if you do! PLEASE speak to your doctor,

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