How am I supposed to get clean off dope for myself when I dont care about myself?
Question by MuncH: How am I supposed to get clean off dope for myself when I dont care about myself?
I lost the love of my life because I wont get sober. I hear that I got to get sober for myself to be successful.
I was there for her when she got clean then when I want the same support in return she leaves me.
She is the reason I want to be a better person but she has this hatred for me and refuses to help because I have to do it for myself she keeps saying. I have suffered from depression for over half my life. I am 26. I have never seen a doctor. I have tried taking pills to OD but i’ve had devine intervention hit me twice. Does that mean I have to stay alive for my ex?? Because there is no one on this earth that I would die for.
I have needed her support to beat this addiction. I don’t want to do it for me if she isn’t in my life. she is my life and i’m nothing without her.
IS THERE ANY HOPE FOR ME? FOR US?
I loved myself when we were together cause I was loved by someone else and it mattered that i was alive. if there is someone else that loves me in the world its my mother and she doesnt show it at all. the decisions she makes are enough to keep me distant. She could really care less. my parents didnt raise me. they complained about me throughout my childhood and i never got into trouble. grounding me to my room for not waking up to my alarm clock for school kept me outta being a pest. i never was able to be a kid and have role models. you may think life couldnt be that bad and i guess it wasnt. I was always alone and I dealt with it for years until I fell in love. I turned to street life when I was 14 so I could become a man instead of a burden. the day I turned 18 I got kicked out and I wasnt outta school yet. I graduated on time cause It was supposed to mean something. It didnt mean a damn thing. My dad never was around and my mom doesnt support me. Y be clean for me? NOBODY CARES.
Best answer:
Answer by ahottchick1585
See a therapist. Thats your best hope.
Good luck & you can work threw this! =)
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