help me with a major opiate problem before i lose my mind and anyone familiar with suboxone?

long story short. i started taking pain meds that where perscribed by my doc for a liife long back injury that has progressivly became worse about eight months ago. never having any drug addiction problems all my life and i 44. so around eighth months ago i was prescribed oxycodone, with directions to take 2 tabs of 5mg every 6 hrs. before i knew it iwas gradully increasing my dose, after about three months i was up 2 20mg twice a day. i then got scared called adiction docs and agreed to go thru a three day detox , eventhough, after i arrived i didnt think i had a problem, again long story short sorry iam rambling on i am having a hell of a time. i was then put on suboxone 8mg twice a day for three months, after i felt they were not helping my pain i ask my doc if we could try pain meds one more time if she gave a maintenance amount. she said talk to addiction docs and whene im off suboxone we will talk i then cold turkey took myself off the suboxone and three days later started a on pain meds 5mg twice every 12 hours if needed. since then i fel like hell where did i screw up ? did i stop the sub to fast and i m now inwithdrawl? its been 9 days since ive taken any suboxone. but i feel like i have to take 12 pills a day of the pain meds just to keep from withdrawling whats happend to me where did i go wrong and how can i fix this? please help before i od

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