Drug Addict Question: Should I apologize? (please read full description below to understand)?
Question by : Drug Addict Question: Should I apologize? (please read full description below to understand)?
This story is not to brag in anyway but more or less to show you were I started and ended with my battle with drug addiction and problems. 1 year ago (January), I was 20 years old, had a great job for my age at a high end /high paying liquor store that I only got because my dad was a high profile client, and good friends with the owner. I had a girlfriend, a great family,a great future, great friends, a good reputation, and was a very well known athletic star in my town.
After some serious troubles struck my life I began to spin downward out of control through a series of mistakes. First I turned to drugs I obtained on the streets. Then through a series of lies and an acting performance that would make Charlie Sheen jealous, I obtained prescription drugs from my doctors in whatever amounts I wanted honestly (Oxycotin, Oxycodone, Morphine, Fentanyl, Vicodin, Butrans, Subutex, Suboxone, Ultram, Ryzolt, Tramadol, Percocet, no joke Ive been on everything, every dosage and serious doses too ( 400 mg total for 1 day at a point in time, I should be dead, honestly)
First, I lost my girlfriend, I told her I was addicted and she left me thinking it would make me shape up (get off drugs) and try to win her back, which did the opposite. I had hoped she said she would help me get clean but instead she left me and after 1 month apart I told her literally everything I hated about her and her family ( her family was pretty terrible people, and thats coming from my sober mouth and the entire town I live in).
Then a few months later, after getting high several times on Oxy, I tried to steal alcohol from the place I worked. I got away with it a few times but got caught the 3rd time by the manager I was friends with. He had no choice but to fire me on the spot but thankfully he did not file any charges against me, I believe because I was not a terrible employee and my family connections to the store.
Then my family slowly began to disown me. I was kicked out several times only to have them miss me and want me home. I met a priest who helped me get into a good college but I could never get off the medication, withdrawl scared me from the several times I had done it, I ruled it out as a treatment option.
I re-began school in Sep 2010 as a deans list student from past 2 semesters at MSU. By Thanksgiving I was dropping out with all F’s. Luckily the school let me “withdrawl” with just a W on my transcript.
Over Christmas break 2010-2011 I lost 90% of my friends due to arguments, disagreements, and laziness. Some were worth losing others were not.
I decided to become sober, I am a few weeks in so far and am now contemplating apologizing to those who I hurt that matter to my life and that of my families. ( my ex employer, and friends)
Sorry for the long story but I hope it shows some people what drugs can do to ones life. Now for the main question. I have apologized to my friends that matter and most have accepted, some are playing the we will see how things go over time card which is fine. So here it is, should I apologize to my previous employer. I am unsure how things are on his views toward me currently and I wouldn’t want to stir more problems up however I feel enough guilt it bothers me a lot. I am clean now so I view it differently than when I was high 24/7. Should I go say something to him in person. Do I write him a letter, what should I do and or say to him in either case.
Any advice would be greatly appreciated.
By the Way to any druggies out there still, best way to get off any prescription pain pills (opiates) is a new patch in the United States called Butrans, I promise it works and coming from someone thats been highly addicted I wouldn’t lie, It a patch that takes 24 hours to kick in but lasts 7 days once on. You can get your life back. Its amazing!!!!!!! It helps overcome oral fixation which many druggies suffer from but may not know. It makes you feel (high) but the minute you stop taking the stuff after a few weeks you don’t have cravings, withdrawls, or anything! Its a gift from God. Only downside is it can be a little expensive. You can have your doctor file an appeal to your insurance to have it covered. If you think subutex or suboxone is good, think again! Well thanks for the time, I look forward to hearing your thoughts.
– MK
Best answer:
Answer by Mopar Muscle Gal
apologizing one of the steps for sobriety
apologize by writing to them
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