can anyone tell me what i MIGHT have with these symptoms?

Published July 8, 2010

Question by Craigy Boi: can anyone tell me what i MIGHT have with these symptoms?
at school or work, i feel like people are talking about me behind my back. and sometimes i feel like they’re plotting against me. some days, i’m fine, and other days, it’s all bad and i start freaking out. sometimes, it gets to the point where i feel like i have to isolate, or part myself from everyone and watch what i say because they will use the words i say to talk bad about me or go against me. sometimes, when i leave school or work, i feel like someone is following me so i drive fast (i commute an hour, to and back from school/work) and panic the whole way. and on some occasions, i start feeling like my own family is plotting on me. i feel like breaking sometimes and yelling at them all, but i know how crazy that would seem for them to hear me accuse them of being against me. what’s wrong with me? it comes and goes when it pleases. i’m fine some days, and others, i’m not. i used to do drugs (meth and ecstasy). been clean for 3 months. possible brain damage? schizophrenia? anyone?
sometimes when people are talking in front of me, i look for hidden meanings or messages in the the words they say, and i get so convinced that they’re talking about me. it’s like they are saying hidden messages that only they can understand to each other. like they’re talking in a certain code, so it seems like they’re not talking about me, but i get so convinced that they are. because i believe that there are hidden messages in their conversations.
it’s like i’m living a multiple lives. one day i’m myself and nothing bothers me. i go to school, get my work done and go home and have a good night sleep. and other days, i’m living in a world full of fear and distrust of everyone and everything around me.
i feel violated sometimes. like, people know about my life and my past and they are all judging me.

Best answer:

Answer by Elizabeth L
schizophrenia

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