Anorexia/ Bulimia Recovery…..now relapse!!!!!!!!!!!!!!?

Published October 30, 2010

Question by veggieforlife: Anorexia/ Bulimia Recovery…..now relapse!!!!!!!!!!!!!!?
NO WEIGHT LOSS ADS!!!!!!

I have been in recovery for anorexia and bulimia since January. I have since then gained 10 lbs. I now weigh 90lbs. I am 5’1 and almost 15.

Lately I have begun binging again, only to purge as much as I can. I just ate a cup of cascadian farms granola, raisins, soymilk, and an apple. I purged that.

I have been doing that for the last 3-4 days, not after everything….only when I am alone.

I developed an eating disorder because I was kinda heavy(110lbs) last summer, and have always dreamed of being skinny. I began throwing up after every meal, but I never binged(so this is kinda new to me). Then I realized how terrible bulimia was, and how it could damage your throat, so I gradually stopped. Somehow that developed into anorexia.

During my anorexia “stage” I would eat anywhere from 500-800 calories per day, and NEVER any more fat than 3 grams(never saturated or trans). Then I became a vegetarian.

I was doing fine in recovery, eating 2400 calories per day, but I have been miserable. My stomach is always sticking out, top and bottom, and I feel sick. I really hate that I have been purging again, but I don’t know what else to do. I am soo miserable. I just feel so fat because of my stomach.

Please don’t put any weight loss ads here, and don’t tell me the obvious, like “go see a doctor, you need help”, “go eat”, “etc…”

I really would like help from someone who has been there. Thanks, xoxox
Im not concerned about the calories as much as how sick I feel
thank you all a bunch! xoxox

Best answer:

Answer by Jade
Im bulimic and i no how you feel. But please try stop i wish i could 🙁

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