Am I really a drug addict?
Question by haha1000: Am I really a drug addict?
I probably know the answer to this question but possibly need a reality check because I’m holding on to the little hope I have left to see if there is someone or actually a lot of people who think that this is just a stage in everyone’s life regardlless of age. I’m in my early 30’s.
I just want to know what anyone thinks: If I’m a real drug addict or just messed up a bit. When I was 17 I was given Percocet for wisdom tooth pain. From that day that was my basic cure of all my problems.
From about 17-32 I’d do some pretty strange stuff to get them but wouldn’t go crazy if I couldn’t. I wasn’t physically addicted just mentally so I’d make frequent stops to the ER and dentist to get them.
I’d smoke pot on and off and took long breaks in between. So I’d smoke pot every day when I was 18 then a few years I wouldn’t touch it and then go back.
Then when I injured myself I was given a script for Oxycodone pills plus Vicodin. I’d get over 200 per month. So, I was in a lot of pain and even when I wasn’t in pain I took them.
Then I would have to buy Oxycontins/Perocets off the streets because I ran out of them before the next script was ready.
I only did cocaine about 14 times. I basically did Klonipins, Adderall, and basically any pill I could get my hands on that would change the way I felt.
I did go to the pipe with crack but probably just did that maybe 10 times or so but never got addicted. This one makes me wonder as well: Heroin. Part of me says that I really didn’t do Heroin because to honestly do it- you have to inject it.
But, I only did it through my nose two times so I really wonder if I really ever did Heroin because I oonly did it two times and honestly didn’t feel anything probably because I was loaded on Oxy.
I went through treatment and it mostly worked with just some slip ups with weed, booze, and now I started taking 5 or 6 sudapheds at a time. But that was only two or three times and damn that stuff makes you fly.
I’m on a maintance program with Suboxone so I can’t use opiates. But my main question is: Do I call myself a drug addict? Am I a real drug addict? Part of me says no because I remember the day that I didn’t need the percocets to make it through the day and I could have stopped but became chemically dependant but not really addicted. I didn’t steal from anyone. And I don’t believe I did Heroin because when you think about it, I never shot it up and that’s how you really do it.
Hope this makes sense!
Best answer:
Answer by Brian
It sounds like you are a drug addict. Most addictions start out as a way to escape reality or cope with unaddressed emotional problems or uncontrolled mental illnesses such as depression or bipolar disorder.
You should go to a psychiatrist because you might have clinical depression and if you do and you treat it you will probably want to use illegal drugs less.
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