All kinds of messed up… any suggestions?

Question by Scuba S: All kinds of messed up… any suggestions?
I got some problems…any solutions?
When I was a minor I would play video games non stop. It was an addiction that was pretty harmless, but it didn’t help my grades or my personality. When I got to college I fell in love with cigarettes/alcohol/drugs. I would get drunk nearly every day and tried every drug under the sun. I have smoked cigarettes and pot almost everyday for the last 10 years. I can’t just do something a little bit… it’s all or nothing.
I am able to hold a job and I’m financially responsible, so it’s not like I need an intervention, but I’ve never been able to hold a relationship for more than a month. I definitely have depression, but not to the point where I want to kill myself. I don’t like things most people like and I generally don’t enjoy doing anything that involves leaving my house. I’m 32 years old and I’ve missed out on a lot of life and I have made a lot of attempts recently toward going out with people and I end up hating it. I feel really uncomfortable around a lot of people and always want to be at home.
To sum it up I think I have –
Anthropophobia (fear of people)
Depression
Addictive personality disorder
and throw in a bit of autisim

I don’t want to just get a pill from a doctor that leads me to another addiction. I’ve tried that before and it was nice but I was like a zombie with a smile. I think about going to AA, but I’m not an alcoholic. I’ve been to several shrinks before and that resulted in nothing. I”m curious on your suggestions on where to go from here?
Thanks

Best answer:

Answer by Gep
It sounds like you are self medicating. My daughter has some of those problems and they found that she has adult ADD or ADHD. One thing that I noticed is what was termed hyperfocus. Also, the social problems. You might research that out. Good luck to you.

What do you think? Answer below!