Has anyone taken alprazolam (xanax) or trazodone while pregnant?

Published May 17, 2010

Okay, this is going to make me seem like a monster but truly I’m not. I just want to be honest so I can get the best help I can. I am 28 years old and I’ve been on methadone for 8 years for a heroin addiction. I can honestly say that when I started taking methadone I never picked heroin up again. That is truly a feat itself. Although, I finally got over any desire to use hard drugs again and the methadone truly saved me from that lifestyle I am currently (and for the last 8 years) dependent on methadone. I know that taking methadone while pregnant wont cause any real problems so I’ve made my peace with that. When I started on methadone the addictionoligist/shrink put me on 1.5 mgs of xanax for all the major panic attacks and fears of dying. I’ve taken the same amount of xanax for 8 years daily until just recently I needed more and got moved up to 2.5mgs a day. I also have taken trazodone the entire 8 years at a dosage of 100 mgs a night until recently I was prescribed more now I take 200-300 mgs a night. If you’re wondering why the all of a sudden need for the increaseses and ask me about detox or rehab I will tell you so you don’t think my doctor is crazy for upping my meds (all of them). I went into a detox/rehab program because I finally wanted to be free of methadone but what they didn’t tell me was that the more methadone you’ve had in your body over the years builds up in your bones and having an 8 year xanax mixture is the hardest thing to get off of all the drugs known.Methadone has a 30-45 day half life but no one told me that.I assumed it was like any opiate. Anyway, they assured me and my family it could be done in 14 days which is just stupid since it would take 30 days minimum to leave my system on top of the benzos. They said what ever we wanted to hear to get our $25,000. After 17 days in detox I thought i was going to die but they moved me to the treatment side where you get no meds at all.I left after 2 days there. I started taking a lot of different pills to ease the withdrawals but in the end went back home and back to the clinic and got put back on methadone, xanax, trazadone, and clonidine and got my meds increased because of how unstable medically and mentally I was. My doc is a good doc but since I’m probably about 5 weeks I haven’t told him I’m pregnant yet.I haven;t gotten a test yet but I’ve had 4 miscarriages over the last 2 years that I know what pregnancies feel like and I know how my body reacts. Here’s the true problem, I was put back on all these meds about 4 weeks ago and it’s selfish of me to say this but I need these medications especially with how unstable my body and mind are since the detox. I am not a monster. I don’t want to hurt my baby but I can’t help but think me having constant panic attacks to the point where I can’t leave the house and sometimes can’t even speak to people I know and love much less strangers. Not to mention I can’t sleep through the night without the trazodone and xanax. I don’t want to hurt the baby by taking these meds but I don’t want to hurt it by not taking them because an unstable mother can hurt her fetus much less the withdrawals that will most likely hurt or even kill it. And here’s the monster in me…I don’t want to tell my doc I’m pregnant because he will just confirm it with a test right there and take away all the meds that keep me stable. I can hardly keep my anxiety in check with the meds when I wasn’t pregnant but now it’s unbearable and my hands shake and the panic is even more out of control with the hormonal changes. I just don’t want to be taken off my meds and have him start messing around with trying new ones especially now. Trust me I didn’t plan this it just happened and only once which is all it takes. So I’m in quite the predicament. So if anyone out there has any experience with xanax daily and or trazodone while pregnant let me know. I’ve read all about different opinions on the net so I’d just like some experiences and advice if possible other than the obvious answer of go see your doctor. Oh and is lower back pain common? I just thought I’d throw that out there too. I also apologize if it seemed like I rambled but I just wanted everyone to know the facts and the truth. So thank you for your time in reading it.
I also have read infor about how xanax is so dangerous for the fetus in the first trimester which scares me since I’m almost 6 weeks.I’ve read it causes serious congenital defect and premature birthwieght and delivery being on of the least.They talk of deformaties in the physical and in the forming of organs.Cleft lips ,hypothermia,maybe brain damage&like i said congetial abnormalities.I couldn’t live knowing I’d done that to my child and I feel like since the hormonal changes I’m about to snap.The anxiety is more than I can handle.I live with my grams and we are as close as best friends I tell her everything but I could never explain how this happened since the circamstance of the conseption was shameful in act(at least to her,she supports me$)I am would tighter than ever&I’m hiding from her&every1&jump when I hear noises.If I thought I had bad anxiety b4 Im losing it now-hormones on top of the secret &stress.I’ve never had so much anxiety& thing is that nothing is trigering it.Hrmone
My normal debilitating anxiety on top of hormones that make preg. women have anxiety anyway is me times a million.The meds aren’t enough and aren’t working now that my body is changing.I never considered myself insane b4 but now with these changes my anxiety and fear has turned in2 agoraphobia and paranoia and gram’s will notice very soon that somethings wrong,cant keep hiding from herbut can’t seem to talk without hyperventilating and me getin sick&weak on top.It’s really bad.My bf is in a rehab so Im alone.Can’t make the anxiety go away or calm it down.Pregnancy makes your normal meds ineffective bc of the blood&eating for 2.It would probably take a tripple dose of what im taking to feel normal&thats unacceptable for the baby.Grams doesn’t understand why I won’t leave the house to get a job or why im so isolated.She will soon see me have a freakout or notice how ill I am.I stay in the bathroom for hours with uncontrolable crying(bet she thinks im doing drugs)and i shake costantly.
since my grams pays for my meds she is in every apt. with my doc &if my meds get changed she will want to know why&if they increse the methadone she will refuse&think it a ploy for them to keep me on it longer.Im tapering down now which is a major nono while pregnant but she doesnt know&she figures if she’s paying she makes the rules.I can’t take it all at once&that might result in me being homeless without a penny or friends 2 go 2 especially when she finds out that the olny time I could have cocieved was when i met my bf when he got a pass to go to the hospital for asprin.Let’s put it this way,I did it for him more than me&let’s just say he didn’t have a hosp.room.I will have to tell her how it happened bc his pass was so short&no way of goin anywhere but the hosp.The details will shame her&she will be disgusted with me&think me gross.I will have nowhere to turn then.She thinks im just being lazy She don’t realize I am sick&this is new all really hard on my body&mind.Im not lazy
since my grams pays for my meds she is in every apt. with my doc &if my meds get changed she will want to know why&if they increse the methadone she will refuse&think it a ploy for them to keep me on it longer.Im tapering down now which is a major nono while pregnant but she doesnt know&she figures if she’s paying she makes the rules.I can’t take it all at once&that might result in me being homeless without a penny or friends 2 go 2 especially when she finds out that the olny time I could have cocieved was when i met my bf when he got a pass to go to the hospital for asprin.Let’s put it this way,I did it for him more than me&let’s just say he didn’t have a hosp.room.I will have to tell her how it happened bc his pass was so short&no way of goin anywhere but the hosp.The details will shame her&she will be disgusted with me&think me gross.I will have nowhere to turn then.She thinks im just being lazy She don’t realize I am sick&this is new all really hard on my body&mind.Im not lazy

Has anyone taken alprazolam (xanax) or trazodone while pregnant?

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