I never ask for “help” but.. HELP?

Question by Claire: I never ask for “help” but.. HELP?
I don’t know why I am feeling this way – so frustrated, agitated, irritable, annoyed by ______? To make a year-long story short, I started talking to my mom over the summer while at a camp (I hadn’t talked to her in 5 yrs before that). My dad didn’t know until I got back when my friend’s mom told him and he confronted me about it and asked me why I would go behind his back. I told him that.. well, because I couldn’t begin to talk to her at home because I would have nobody to turn to for comforting advice and all my stepmom would do was yell and scream for no reason (she is honestly psychotic). He understood, why? Well, b/c that couldn’t be anymore true! But ever since I got back, I’ve been so frustrated. Idk y, like I miss camp – I miss normal rules, and I cried on the way home b/c I didn’t want to see my stepmom. She’s that bad, and emotional abuser. Then today, I wanted to see my b/f’s soccer game like my dad said we could do but since it’s later than he thought, we aren’t. So…….
I had to go back on MY word to my boyfriend. My dad thinks that I’m too young for so many things, I’m even seeing a counselor at school and she says that I’m the one who is giving HIM parenting skills! I don’t know any other way to explain it, but then on days like today where his decisions are sooo… wrong…I feel soo out of place and worthless, and just wish that maybe my stepmom would actually poison my food (..like she jokes about. HA ha?) one day so I could go to the hospital and my dad would see what a psychotic witch she is.

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