I’ve been feeling very depressed since november, and thinking of suicide. advice?
Question by tequila sunrise & bloodshot eyes: I’ve been feeling very depressed since november, and thinking of suicide. advice?
im 17 and a guy. since november i’ve been very depressed. i dont know why.. the year before that i got depressed at the same time and took up cutting which was a retarded idea.. which i have quit hopefully for good now. i thought it would go away.. but it hasn’t. some days i just can’t stop thinking of suicide. its like it just floods my brain and all i think of is plans and what i would do if i did it. then other days its not even there and if i think about it, its not naturual. i’ve never told anyone this except for my brother and my best friend, and they both just think its just normal and will go away. i dont think it is. weed seems to be the only thing that makes me better. i smoke it everyday as much as i can realy but for the last couple months, it hasn’t been very often and i dont have the accress to pot like i used to. i would NEVER quit. when i come home from school somedays just wanting to die i smoke a joint and i instantly feel better, i never feel bad thoughts while im high, thats why i love it so much and i know im mentally addiced. when i dont have weed, i try to subsitute with alcohol and lately ive been drinking alot despite my low tollerance. its nothing compared to marijuana though. in the summer i will have opium tea and that scares me because i know how addiciting it is, and how if im in a depressed mood i just can’t help myself!
my friends are convinced i have ADHD and they were poking fun at me because apparently i have every symptom, but i’ve never been diagnosed. i think i mite be bipolar.. because some days i feel great and the next, i feel like crap. my friends notice my mood changes also.
i dont know what to do anymore… i used to be able to rely on weed to make me feel better, but now i dont even have weed…
i dont know what to do. any suggestions or advice?
quiting is easier than it sounds… i wudn’t even try quitting pot because there wud be no point and i have no will to stop. but alcohol i wud like to stop, esepcailly drinking by myself..its hard to think about.
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