Am I nuts? Just selfish? Bipolar?

Published July 18, 2010

Question by grizzly_asian84: Am I nuts? Just selfish? Bipolar?
Seriously. If your crazy do you know it.
Okay, 24/male army brat. Mom, died when i was 11 of bone cancer. Mom and dad had a bitter divorce not long befoe she passed. Moved with dad to South Korea after mothers death. Dad has girlfriend’s that were very young. He complained about them using him for money,yet he continued to send them money long after coming back to the U.S..
Four years later I move back to the states to the same community I lived before I left with my father. Began abusing Alcohol/Marijauna/LSD substantially for 9 years.
Anyways, I understand everyone comes from a different background, but could these prior events plus self – medication make one go crazy?
I have this hot and cold problem with almost everything. I seem to build up this standard for my friends and then feel upset by my expectations. One minute I want to have a party at my house the next I will litteraly be hiding out in my own house for reasons not caused by them. My outlook on life is also weary at times. I have always been flakey whether it be school or work. I lose intrest very easy. I feel like there’s two me’s. For example, my nephew turned 2 in Feburary and I bought this Jeep ride around thing for him but couldn’t build up enough courage to bring it to him. I dont want him to see me drink. It seems at times the only thing holding me back is me. If you have read this so far, thank you. I am 100 percent serious. Do I need to get over myself? This is causing a drastic strain on my relationship with my girlfriend. I am at times thinking about suicide, but have seen the effects it causes on loved ones.This sounds selfish but, I know I abuse alcohol and marijauna, but I have never sought out treatment. And I don’t picture myself ever quiting. Any Inquries would be great but in a constructive way. Thanks

Best answer:

Answer by Bekmurot A
About Just selfish can be read in http://health-schools.blogspot.com/?q=Just%20selfish

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