What feelings do you think the writer had when she wrote this poem?

Published May 16, 2010

Dexoticate

I’m addicted to you
Repeatedly detoxicating myself from the touch of your fingertips
Detoxicating myself from your aura
I’m drunk on it
Detoxicating myself till my next addiction comes along
Drugged myself with your presence
Deeper in my veins
Stuck in my system
What am I gonna do but detox
Detox until the next addition comes along
Goodbye, hello, when can I finally decide?
But I don’t want to let you go
Hold you tighter until my heart explodes
It’s like fire pumping through my body
You’re my water
It was a game and I was the player
Fell harder this time
You broke the mold but I don’t care
I’m detoxicating every day I don’t see you
My head spins with questions about you
You’re my obsession, my passion
I miss you
If I had you, I probably wouldn’t want you
A desert of loneliness has made you into my Zahir
You took my peace of mind
Gave me a moment in return
A moment I can’t forget
I’m tired of this sick one-sided longing
So I detoxicate, waiting for the day my favorite songs
Don’t remind me of you anymore
My love, my desire, my drug

What feelings do you think the writer had when she wrote this poem?

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