Are these Long Term Effects of Sexual Abuse?

Question by Me: Are these Long Term Effects of Sexual Abuse?
I have never told anybody, not even my family about this, except my best friend when I was 8, who moved away long ago.

When I was about 8 I didnt know what sex was. One day my brother 12, just told me about the “Nudey Game” as he called it. I thought it was a game. And he got me to have sex. It’s kind of hard for me to remember, but I don’t think his penis actually went in my parts. But after one time, I decided I didnt want to, so I told him. But I ended up wondering things… And I told my best girl pal at the time about “the nudey game” and we got in her closet and played with each others parts. But I didnt do it anymore.

Her parents called my parents and told them about that part (with the girl). But I dont think my mom ever knew about my brother.

He’s 18 now, and im 14.
I have a hard time when I think about this
I always say “I hate him” because I do in numerous ways, our personalities clash majorly, plus the whole incident. My mom always Tells me that I do Love him
But I don’t think I do (im speaking as a brother, and I DEFINATLY dont love him in a sexual way.

Now, I have days where im hyper and full of energy, but I get bored and depressed. If you say me walking by on the street you would never guess, because I hide it under a pretty smile. Im also very Lonely, most of the time. I have a great personality and im pretty, but im still lonely and feel like I dont have friends.

I also have a sort of obsession with Masterbation… I do, alot. I’m a virgin, and im not sexually active.

I like music and art, and I tend to divert myself from people somtimes and obsess with the music and art.

Are these the effects of abuse?

Best answer:

Answer by anon
I’m not so sure about this one. High chances of this being a sexual abuse. If you start to feel terrified when you have sex with someone else, you could be emotionally and sexually damaged. Best thing to do is to talk to your parents. Him having sex with you is as well incest when you were young.

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