I am burnt out with life and i’m only 17 years old…?

Question by harper91: I am burnt out with life and i’m only 17 years old…?
I’m a 17 year old guy living in california who has too many problems to list so i’ll just throw a few out there:
1. I have been fighting with my parents for almost 5 years and haven’t even said “I love you” for maybe 7 or 8 years.
2. I started to use hard drugs such as opiates, meth, speed, coke, etc. when i was 15 as a way to remain sane and prevent suicide.
3. I believe I have some type of mental issues like depression and/or ADHD, and after I quit using cocaine when i was 16, I think I developed either some form of manic depression/bipolar disorder and I began to see my grades drop even more and the problems of focusing got worse with the addition of extreme mood swings that my friends described as “the other me”.

I can’t focus on anything except chemistry and other forms of science. I can never bring myself to do homework and I haven’t completed a homework assignment in almost 3 years of high school. I will also literally catch myself listening to someone talking directly to me but i will be thinking of something else and not absorbing a single word they are saying. It’s almost like they’re talking, but not a single comprehensible sound is issuing from their mouth.

I have tried illegal street drugs such as amphetamines, methamphetamines, and cocaine but they actually mellow me out, make me hungry, and help me focus. Whereas others i know who have done them before become extremely hyper, energized, and anorexic. The exact opposite of me?

I am almost about to drop out of high school 3 months from graduation simply because i can’t stand to sit in a classroom and listen to the teacher blabber on forever about something i already know and understand.

I don’t want to have to use illicit drugs to be able to focus my scrambled thoughts, but i’m not entirely sure who to talk to?

I meet almost all of the DSM-IV “symptoms” of ADHD and whatever my problem is, ADHD or not, it’s beginning to severly and negatively ruin my life.

I have nobody to talk to, have almost killed myself, and can’t see my future ahead of me. PLEASE HELP

Best answer:

Answer by Metal HeaD DeviL30
Hell I’ve been burnt out on life since I was 15. Whaddaya gonna do

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