i have a serious drug problem.. it’s long but please read?

Question by J: i have a serious drug problem.. it’s long but please read?
i started smoking marijuana my junior year of high school and i didn’t get addicted right away. whoever says that marijuana isn’t addicting is wrong! It isn’t addicting for everyone, just some. I was an occasional smoker where i would do it about 5-8 times a month. Summer came and i started to smoke about 3-4 times a week. which isn’t a big deal and it didn’t cause me problems at all! At the end of the summer, on my birthday, my parents found a bag of weed. They were so mad and literally hated me for a long period of time. I got my license late and was in a depressed state of mind. My mother and i never got along and we were at constant battle with each other. I was daddy’s little girl so at least i had someone on my side sometimes. In a short period of two months i had everything go wrong!! I got in 2 car accidents, lost my job, tore my meniscus, ended my last soccer season TERRIBLY, lost my first love to my friend, found out my father has lung cancer, had to cover for my alcoholic mom, and still had my parents HATING me. (i was not smoking weed then either and i never told any of my friends about all the bad things going on at home) I was always a good student and kid and had a lot of friends. I was voted ray of sunshine and class comedian for my superlatives in the yearbook. I was also a good athlete but always have had a lot of pressure on me with feeling like i always had to be the best and set a good example because nothing i ever did was good enough.) During my lacrosse season, my coach found me stoned at 711 but she didn’t tell anyone even though she could lose her job. i scored my 200th goal and i am ranked in the shore. I am going to college for lacrosse so i could have lost my chance to play away at school. I recently found anti-depressents hiden that i found my mom was taking. I finally told two of my close friends about my mom and they both tell me how they think she’s been acting weird lately and they feel bad for me. I don’t like how they feel bad for me. One of my friends really looks up to me and she can’t get over how well i handle myself through all this. Last week i started smoking non-stop. i do it 3-4 times a day. and now my mom is saying how happy she is that i’ve been so much better! This is really hard for me right now and there aren’t many people who understand so it’s even harder. Am i over-reacting? is my life really not that screwed up? I need help too.. i don’t want anyone saying that i am a screw up.. i just need someone who understands me. And i can’t go away to rehab.. i just CAN’T!

Best answer:

Answer by TINYT
GET SOME HELP!!!!!!!

Answer by Danielle
u already made the first step.
admitting you have a problem.
there are hot lines where u can talk to paied profetionals.. if u are really not looking for any long term solutions.
im going to tell you right now, your family is your support, and although teenagers dont usually tell their parents everything there are people out there that are looking to help
tharapy changes my life.
i went throught tharapist after tharapist and i could not and would never ever, open up to any of them.
then i relized, it wasnt the tharapist i didnt like, it was my life story.
if these kids you call your friends are really your firends, they would not feel bad for ypu they would help you through the hard times and would not feel bad for you.
if u let your drug problem get out of hand, rehab could be the only soulution,
so stop yourself, relize you are not only affecting yourself but the people around you.
and ask your mom if maybe you could see someone like a therapist. and i garentee you will be on the road to your recovery in no time.

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