I punched my girlfriend because she said I deserved what I got?

Question by N…: I punched my girlfriend because she said I deserved what I got?
My girlfriend and I were having an argument about my past. I don’t know if its true but I have memories of my dad coming into my room and forcing me to give oral to him. My parents divorced and the thing is that my mom didn’t believe in counselling. I asked her if what happened was true and if they divorced because of me. She doesn’t give me a straight answer. She just tells me to forget about it, it was a bad dream. Anyway I left home when I was 18, and got addicted to drugs and alcohol because it helped “numb” the memory. I got thrown out of med school due to poor grades, and I’ve been working at tesco ever since. My girlfriend knows all this, she tells me to get over it like my mother. I told her to mind her business because this is my problem, not hers.

Yesterday I was really down for some reason, and she caught me crying at night. She turned the light on, told me to be quiet, stop acting like a victim. I was too much of a wreck to argue about this so I tried going downstairs to sleep on the couch for the rest of the night. She muttered something like “you deserved it”. I don’t know what happened next but the next thing I remember is me punching her. I don’t know how to deal with this anymore. I’ve thought about suicide a bit too often because the pain of not knowing if its true or not is getting harder and harder to deal with every day. I hurt my girlfriend and it’s taken away my career of being a physician. How can I fix ?

Best answer:

Answer by Honeybear’s Lady
First of all you need to get both of these women out of your life the mother and the girlfriend. Get yourself into counseling and see if you can work through this, But ditch that bitch how dare she say something like that to you. There is no way she love you if this is how she acts when you are in crisis. Please seek help and god bless.

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