Why do I feel like this and why do I hate him so much, he hasn’t even done anything bad to me?

Question by Amy: Why do I feel like this and why do I hate him so much, he hasn’t even done anything bad to me?
I moved schools last year and I’m not happy with my new friends, I miss my old friends so much but its so hard to catch up with them because I was so busy before I got sick, preparing for my future. I missed out on half of 9th grade last year because of Glandular Fever. I’m still getting over it, Had it since June last year. Around New Year’s I was so confused about my sexuality I almost cried and I never cry. Ever since Christmas I’ve lost 5 kg and suddenly more concious of looking good and keeping fit. I’m constantly putting myself under pressure and feel bad all the time because I’m scared I won’t get into the university I want to get into because it all depends on an audition and interview. My uncle who I haven’t seen since I was 6 has been drug trafficking for the past 10 years has come by plane to live in my dads business and is providing meals and money for him. He’s working for my dad. He’s recently completed 1/6 of rehab but ran out of money. He’s smuggled marijuana across a border with my grandma in the car. Listening to him talk about drugs is scary. I’m worried about him and if he’ll get back on Crystal Meth when my family and I go on a holiday soon.He has unrealistic expectations and he’s always hurting my dog unintentionally. We are with him all the time and in the past 3 days I all of a sudden hated him so much I’ve never hated someone in my life as much as I don’t like him. I wouldn’t ever let him know that I hate him and I do feel kinda bad for him but he’s putting my family under so much stress and I never cry, I tend to bottle things up and I got a head cold and haven’t been getting much sleep and yesterday I was holding back tears for the afternoon, feeling like I wanted to cry about the smallest thing. Then last night betweein 1-4am I was crying so much. I’ve never felt this depressed before and I kind of feel like I should be talking to a counseller. But I don’t want to worry my parents, they are under enough stress as it is and I don’t know if your parents will find out if you talk to one at school which starts in less than 6 weeks.
Didn’t know where to post this.

Best answer:

Answer by awommack
just tell them

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