I’ve been going downhill since Last August. Drugs, Sex, Drug Court, Old Habits, Compulsions, Addiction…?

Question by Lonely Rehab Girl: I’ve been going downhill since Last August. Drugs, Sex, Drug Court, Old Habits, Compulsions, Addiction…?
I used to Take Oxycotton and then mix it with Alcohol [In august/last summer]. I also tried cocaine for the first time with my aunt, and extascy. I stopped for awhile, then started back up in december with xanax.
December 14 2006:
Where I hadn’t eaten for 2 weeks, then I took 9 Quarter Xanax, Drank 7 Shots of GreyGoose vodka, Then Chugged Tequila, then took 4 more Quater Xanax [Equaling 3 bars and a quarter or another one]

After cops coming to my door basically I got into drug court and susposed to get clean.
I didn’t do that I found ways around the drug tests, but one day I slipped up and then got sent away for a month.

Then I ran away instead of completeing my program so I got off for a month in a half. Now I leave July 3rd and I just did a Gram of Coke in one line yesterday.

how to i face the reality, i want to change, but it’s so fun, yet disasterious, and destructive, (I mean it’s ruined my family…entirely) I don’t know how to turn my back on drugs now…

Best answer:

Answer by Leneki
Please dont listen to that persons answer on top of mine. He doesnt know a thing about addiction. You just are’nt ready to stop yet. And that is the insane part about this desease. We could rob from our grandmother and steal from our best friends and still not ready to stop. You know hon, some of us addicts have to die so others can live, I just hope you are’nt one of them. Because you are doing alot of dangerous stuff. When you have hit your bottom, then and only then will you be ready. And then there wont be anything you wont do to want to get and stay clean. Until that time I will be praying for you and the rest of the still suffering addicts. God Bless!!

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